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I don’t know…..
I don’t know a lot of things right now. Someone the other day told me that they rarely hear me say these words. I wonder how much I keep this question boiling around inside of me. I fear that everyone sees it….the amount of doubt I have in my life is scary right now. I question things that make people un-comfortable and frankly make me uncomfortable. But I am learning very slowly to rest in the tension of all of this. What an oxymoron, to rest in the tension. My life has been rocked a lot as of lately, a lot of my foundations once again stripped from me. So I stand or float or something in the middle of nowhere un-sure of where to go and what to do. But through all of this one thing I am learning is that it is o.k. to say “I don’t know”…that it is o.k. to let down my proverbial pride and humbly say these words. To rest as I suspend in the middle of nowhere un-sure of what exactly it is that is holding me up.