Humanity

Broken, smashed to pieces... Why do I hurt people over and over? Why can't I seem to get this right? I am so tired of hurting people that the temptation to shut down completely is a very strong desire. It was never my desire to hurt anyone...never. But I seem to do it, I hurt the people in my life no matter what I do. Is this it? Is this what it means to be part of the human race? Are we destined to hurt each other? Why? Why can't I seem to face my pain? My loneliness screams out in so many ways...I have never faced it. Henri Nowen would say that until I face my loneliness my presence is demanding. I want others to fill me.....but the only person who can fill me is not others...so here I go on a quest to the inner journey to embrace my loneliness and turn it into solitude.
I am sorry for the candid blog....I guess that is how I am.
I hurt...and we are all so lonely.....how can we face it?