Monday, July 26, 2010

Transcendence


To Return to the Source it is not necessary to destroy and annihilate the lower levels. It is necessary only to transcend them, to cease identifying exclusively with them...In true and unobstructed evolution, we take all the lover levels with us, out of love and compassion, so that all levels eventually are reconnected to the Source.

To negate everything is to preserve everything; to transcend all is to include all.

We must go whole bodily to God; failing that, we fall into dissociation, repression and inner fragmentation. Ultimate transcendence is thus not ultimate annihilation of the levels of creation, bur rather their ultimate inclusion in Spirit.

The Final Transcendence is the Final Embrace.
-Ken Wilber

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Big changes

My own place.

A new job.

Transformation of old relationships; which includes the end of some and the birth of new ones.

A girls gotta do what a girls gotta do.

The inner workings of my journey are complex and no I don’t even understand them all yet. All I know is that I am following things that are beyond me. To maintain step with this is very difficult, but necessary.

Thanks for reading :).

Friday, July 9, 2010

Thou art SCORPIO!!


Watch out this girl is born under the star sign Scorpio, but her rising is also in Scorpio. Dangerous? I think so.

I am not going to deny my utter fascination with star signs. I can not quite figure out why they mesmerize me but alas there is something in me that is very drawn towards them. No I do not read my horoscope everyday. Like everything rich and full of history star signs too have been polluted by our main stream pop materialistic culture. Many of the horoscopes written (unless by an actual astrologer which actually takes many hours of calculation and observations) are full of it, out to make a quick buck off of people who would love more than anything to have control over a world that they feel is otherwise out of control.

No I don’t read my horoscope. And for those of you who know me well, can appreciate how much I love to analyze and figure out people. They also know that I love things that require careful thought and a certain amount of scrutiny and skepticism especially when it comes to matters of belief or…..anything really.

Well lets face it. We all have our myths that we believe. Yes I am aware of the reality that star signs were created by humans. Back in the day sages would gaze at the sky in order to read what the heavens were instructing them to do. And yes this is even recorded in the Bible for those of Monotheistic decent who consider this witchcraft. Prophecies were fulfilled by things that were long before seen in the stars (eg: The Maggi who saw Jesus’ birth).

Well that’s all nice and good but in our modern day of science and “objective reality”, star signs quickly loose their credibility to anything that could remain as fact or beyond. I continue to advocate on some level that matters of Faith were never meant to be factual or explain things on an “objective” level. They were myths or stories created to help individuals make it through whatever they were going through at that time. People get so offended when you say this. But any degree of “faith” you can not prove. That would just defeat the purpose of faith. I sort of smile when people make claims like they know for sure that Jesus rose from the dead. If I ask them how they know they just say, because I know, or because Jesus told them so, or because history says so. You must have a reason for knowing, if Jesus just told you so than well you could be diagnosed as a Schizophrenic, and history has been interpreted by many faculties and re-written by how many people etc…. it is not the most reliable either. That does not mean that you can’t believe in Jesus or have some sort of “relationship” with him. Perhaps that myth is meaningful for you and is something that helps you cope with your day to day life. Maybe the Holy Spirit has directly spoken to you, or maybe the Bible still speaks to you.

For so long I could not understand why good thinking people would remain in traditional religions. But I suppose it is for the same reason that I appreciate star signs. I love my star sign (Scorpio for those who don’t know and if you want to read more about the particular traits that go along with this here is a link, most of you who know me will find it very funny), why? Because it resonates with me and somehow helps me understand why I do the things I do, and certain characteristics that I have align with that of the scorpion. All star signs also have an element that goes with them. Scorpio is a water sign. My favorite element. Water is mutable, and can adapt to changes quickly. It also nourishes life, and in the deepest recesses of the earth you always find water. There is also so much going on beneath the surface that most people are unaware of. Also water is not afraid to live in the most un-desirable places (sewage etc…). But unleashed and dangerous water can drown, take away lives, overbear, be wild and unpredictable. Traits I find definitely are true for myself.

I also find that certain star signs are drawn to other star signs. For example a lot of my closest friends or the people who I have felt the most connected too in my life have been an earth or a water sign themselves (except my beloved Leo’s, the one fire element I get along with!).

Yes a myth. But one that I find helpful for myself. So I chose to participate in it. Maybe it is absolute truth, but then again maybe not. All in all does it matter that much? After contemplating this truth that was starring me right in the face I am willing to be more open minded to those individuals who get their meaning from a particular place in order to help them make sense of their world, and maybe all I can do is hope that one day this will me a mutual understanding.

I suppose how we will all get along and how much we will be able to love and take care of our world really depends on how firmly and tightly we hold to our myths and how willing we are to change them accordingly.

The end.

p.s. Although star signs are not such a big deal here, in India part of the every day local news is to hear from the local astrologer. Also before a couple wed’s it is imperative that the couple go to an astrologer to ensure that they are a compatible match.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

The problem is not faith

"My problem has never been my faith. It has always been the literal ways that human beings have chosen to articulate that faith".

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Back to the forest



Yes….alas. I have embarked upon re entering the realm of the woods. And above all I have decided that it is one of my favorite places to be. There is just something so calming, refreshing and healing about being in the presence of sheer nature. As I was focusing on pounding in tons of trees the other day I stopped to actually stare at the ground for a few minutes. It suddenly embarked on me that of all my years planting I rarely ACTUALLY look at the ground. The colors were stunning. There was sand mixed in with red pine needles, splash in a few shades of green, add some pine cones, bark, and tiny little purple flowers. I was almost brought to tears by the sheer beauty of the ground. Oh how little I am present sometimes. I forget to observe my surroundings and to remember that I am in paradise. And the only thing that keeps me from enjoying it is my own head trip.

Be still……

I think this year of planting will be quite different. It will no longer be about being the best or pounding in millions of trees until my body screams for no more. It will be more about trying to be present, trying to soak in what my surroundings are offering me. Of course doing this will not be easy for me. But probably really good for my pride.

I also find for some reason when I am in the woods my imagination becomes so much more alive, whirling with ideas and thoughts. Yes to all of you people who don’t know I actually write stories. I have about five or six that I have been working on for years. And for some reasons I was always ashamed of this. But I have decided once and for all that I am going to write my stories down. I have a brilliant imagination, a gift that has been bestowed upon me and for once I have decided that yes it is time. It is time to let my characters who have been developed and shaped in my mind come alive through the written word. I am not sure why tree-planting allows me to work on my stories all the more. Nature is just so inspiring. The woods are my haven.

Perhaps one day I will be brave and post parts of my stories here :).

Thursday, April 8, 2010

I have a new love in my life

Well I thought I would make this confession public.

I have a new love in my life....

And it's called banana chocolate chip spelt bread.

Enjoyed with a cup of pomegranate green tea and it is enough to make a girl keel over and die of ecstasy.

So delicious.....So moist.....so full of decadent chocolate...

mmmmmmmmm......banana chocolate chip spelt bread.

I wish I could invite you all over for a piece, but like any jealous lover I will probably eat the entire thing for myself ;).

Maybe someday I will learn to share.

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Collective Conciousness


A collective human experience shared, experienced and talked about as a collective human experience. One wakes up to the reality that they really are not alone, and the only thing that makes them alone is the concept in their own minds that they are in fact alone.

The beauty of this is it calls us to side step the notions we hold as "self" the barriers that really separate us (gender, race, religion, wealth) all begin to dissipate leaving us with one reality. And that reality is moving forward as a collective human consciousness and to begin to start participating in a movement that is so much greater than ourselves; rather than focused on our separate journey as if we are the only ones on it.

How else will the world change?